Guys. I am in such a crazy place. I am caught in this incredible tension of knowing I need to make some changes - even knowing what specific changes and the fight within me is the strongest it has ever been.
It is not so much a battle anymore - I am starting to feel like it must be a surrender - a full and total surrender to a new way of living, seeing and believing. There is a part of me that is holding on to past with such a tight grip. I am retraining my brain and I am shocked at the resistance I am feeling. And it is a feeling. It is also exhausting. I am committed. I have just over 2 and half months until the end of the year. I have all the tools and resources to affect some serious change.